Yep, I have almost had it! I can’t take any more bumps, construction sites, potholes, or ditches. I’m not talking about the real ones. I’m referring to the Road to Success. Everyone’s heard of it right? Everyone either has heard of it, gone through it, or is going through it right now. It’s inevitable! Everyone goes through hardships in life. It differs on many levels but that doesn’t mean one person’s difficulties is not valid compared to another. My question is, do you all get tired of it? When do you call it quits?? How many failures do you have to go through before you say, “Ok, that’s seriously enough.”?
That’s a serious question. We always hear of “feel good” and “I made it” success stories. In reality, what’s the percentage of those people who are actually successful?? They’re great motivating stories, but what are the chances I will be in the same boat as them? Ugh. I apologize for my rant. I felt it today. I felt a little glimmer of defeat in my heart…..doubt and hurt crept in. I couldn’t help but post about it. The struggles of trying to be financially stable and making sure my future is secure is taking a toll. I’m thankful and blessed for having a husband that supports everything I do. I want to make sure I don’t disappoint. I think that’s where this insecurity and doubt stems from. That pressure to not disappoint.
I know I’m not a lazy person. Laziness is not what got me my M.D. degree. Passion, drive, and motivation are what got me to the finish line. However, that is sometimes not enough. Consistent failure after giving it my ALL for something I worked hard and gave up my early adult life for can do a number on your emotions. I started doubting my success, my path, and whether I was making the right decisions. Sigh…and here we are. Asking the question that I’m sure millions of people have asked themselves before.
How do I keep going? How do I stay motivated?
Hopefully I’ll arrive at the answer come next post. Until then, God Bless, keep your head up, and trek on!